I am petrified, scared, so scared. This training I am in, has got me so scared to move forward. I know I am making a mountian out of a mole hill, but I have always been scared to move forward in one way or the other. I am three weeks into this and I so want to run, and hide, I absolutely want to quit! I feel, it is because the thought of talking to people over the phone and not wanting to fail is giving me anxiety. Tomorrow, we do live hot seats, and it terrifies me, I have avoided doing them, but there is no escape for tomorrow, tomorrow, I will have to take live calls. Sure the teacher will be right there, but it still terrifies me like no other. Tomorrow is payday, and all day long I have been thinking of ways to quit this, just not even come back, but I feel so guilty, that I have talked myself out of it. for one I don’t want to disappoint my mom, she is so proud of me, then I don’t want to disappoint my trainer, he has spent time and effort, plus the recruiters that I interviewed with, thought well enough of me, and I impressed them, that they offered me on the spot to be able to go through this training. Of course myself, I don’t want to disappoint myself, I just want to do well, and get past this anxiety, and be able to prove to myself that I do have what it takes to do this, to move forward, and to make something more of myself. I am terrified. I want to crawl in a corner, ball up and cry, but I have to keep it together, I have to push myself forward. I can’t quit. I have to keep going. So I am going to stick this out; until the end, and if I make it, I make it, and if I don’t well, back to putting in applications. I am so scared, so very scared.