That is just how I am feeling at this moment, I am here, but I am not here, I feel somewhere else, somewhere all these hurts and pains cease to exist. That is not the case, I am here, I am hurting, and I feel useless and powerless over all that is going on with my mom. Yes, I am scared of what happens next, yes I cry almost every night if I think of things too long, but I move forward, as best as I can each and every day.
I never imagined something like this would happen, but then again how could I, this is just how life can be, and you deal with it the best that you can, you do the best that you can, and you give it all over to God, for with God, all things are possible, all things have their season and reason. Even in all of this pain, I know my faith in God will power me through all of this.