Category: alive

Moved back in…

To my apartment, me and the little girl.  She sniffed, slinked, and scurried around the place.  Meowing loudly, finally getting familiar with things.  She loves the new cat tree, got a real bargin at pet smart.  What I thought was 99 bucks, was on sale for 69 dollars.  Oh believe me, I spent money last night, between the cat and some food for myself, I almost wept, but it was necessary.

I now really look forward to coming home after a long days or nights work to see my kittie girl.  Now that she is mine and my responsibility.  Anyways, there are great responsibilities as a adult I have to do Monday, one of which, need to update my resume.  I am trying to stick with this job, for at least a year, not sure that will happen, as so much nonsense is going on there.  So that is that.

Last weekend, went to the free day at Zilker, went to the botanical garden.  Invited nephwe and sister who have never been, it was great fun.  Photos below.







Welp, until the next adventure, keep it fun.

Springing Forward…

Daylights savings time begins again, this time we spring forward, so we lose an hour.  I like that it gets dark later now, that is good for me; since I ride the bus, and I hate walking to the bus stop at 6 and it is dark, so this gives me a little more light out.  The days are just running into one another, so quickly that I am not able to catch up with things.  Next week, it will be 3 months since the passing of my mom, I still cry, last night I had a good cry with my sister.  I will be so happy once I can stop crying, and just have that sense of peace and calmness inside of me, no tears, just being able to talk about her, without having to tear up every time.  In time, in time it will get there, just have to be patient.

Lots is going on with work, lots of things we are doing, we got in live plants and flowers, and they are selling like crazy, I have been thinking that soon, I will get some.  I have been working hard this week.

I have been working on getting my apartment ready to receive my cat princess.  I will be getting her a new litter box, and also a new cat tree, so that she will be right at home.  Also getting a new sectional and area rug.  Once I get that done and situated, I will post photos.

South by Southwest is in town now, not plan on going to any of it, I just do not really have time or patience for it.  Anyhoo, life goes on.  I at least have Monday off, so will make the best of it.  Until the next time friends, enjoy!

Getting back in it somewhat

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything on the regular.  I am very slowly getting myself back.  I know it will take a while.  Always a work -in-progress.  So this morning, the bus did not come, there I and another woman staning there.  She calls cap metro customer service, they say it is a mechanical issue, but do not offer when ir if they will send a back-up bus.  See this lousy route as it may be only has one bus making the rounds wvery our on the weekends, and two busses back and forth on the weekdays.  And it goes in a short loop, not like it was goong all the way to China and back, but just to one park and ride, then to the Howard Station. Anyhoo, this lady calls a ride share and tells me I can ride with her to the park and ride.  Now that is mighty generous.  That is my shining star of the morning.  

So getting back to myself;I’ve been cleaning my apartment, and making some changes.  So that it will accommodate my new kiddo.  Princess.

Who is now my responsibility since my mom passed away.  I am getting her a new cat tree, and hopes she takes the move and new accommodations well.  To be continued on that!

I also acquired new artwork 

This painting comes from a co-worker who is very artistic.  I hope she sells more of her work.  It will hang over my fireplace once I get thing situated.  

Winter is subsiding, soon Spring will be upon us.  Today is turing out like a spring day, so lovely in the sun.  I am enjoying it while it is here.  

Here’s to getting back…  All aboard!

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 5:

 

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A day at the Capitol, This was the first trip that I took with her and my stepdad when they came to visit me In September of 2013.  She loved going down to the Capitol, her and I were alike, when it came to exploring new places.  I remember several times going to the Capitol with her, we finally even ate at the Capitol Grille a couple of times.  These are the very good memories that I will keep.

Not on the bright side…

My asthma and allergies flared up bad this morning, I was to work today, but decided to call out and head down to the walk in clinic.  Where I got some medication for my flare up, they put me on some prednisone, to reduce the inflammation, and I am still able to take OTC mucinex and  also do my breathing treatment as well.  I have a note that puts me off work for two days, but only going to take today off.  I will be back at work in the am.  It has been a pretty hard day.  I really do not think I could have made it at work today anyway, I am so achy, from all the coughing, I just want it all to stop.

Yesterday made it a solid month since mom has been gone, we made it, teary eyed, and full of memories, but we made it.  I made it.  I go to church every Sunday with my family, Trying to get back to God, trying to get closer to Him, and His Word. It will take time, but I am committed to doing this.

Another day, another way.  Keeping it moving forward.

 

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 3:

 

mom at museum

This photo was the first time mom had gone to The Blanton Museum.  It was a fun day after we got there, before it was a little nerve wracking, only because we took the bus, and we walked down to the museum, and I was figuring out which way to turn, but once I righted myself, we were on our way, and she loved it.  I never did get a chance to take her to other museums around Austin, but she really did love this one.  This is the stacked waters wall she is standing in front of.  It was a very fun day indeed.

Life goes on…

And so do I…  Day by day, as I wake from each one.  Daylight gives way to nighttime, and it continues on.  Today back to work, for both me and dad.  He took off, to deal with social security, and also a doctor’s appointment.  He is going to have to keep an eye on his high blood pressure, it was a bit high, and they found he is a little anemic. Bills are getting paid, slowly, and a bit late, but still being paid.

Yesterday, I donated money to a go fund me, for a friend on facebook, who is trying to pay for fees to get to see his little boy.  I felt really strong about donating to his fund, I myself had set up a go fund me, to help pay for bills for when mom died, and what I got was very helpful, and it just made me want to pay it forward to someone else that may be in need.

This is true, life does go on, and so do I.

My Corner…

What I see…

Looking out the waiting room window, today is a cold,wet,gray kind of day.  It is Sunday, and me and dad are at the hospital visiting mom.  She is in a state, upset about things, no details, but very upset.  I hate seeing her this way, I pray this does not last the whole day.  I really do not like hospitals, but here I am, rveryday with pop in tow, coming to see my mom.  I love this woman, and want her to get better, and stronger. Emotionally I do not know where I an at, I suppose all over the place, just trying to hold it together.  I will get there, I will get there.

My Corner…

Another evening here at the hospital.  Today was my day off from work, so spent it taking care of business,before heading up to the hospital.  As I quietly sit and type this out; what comes to mind is how are we, meaning I coping with all this.  I figured some day I would have to assist my parents, or care for them.  I guess I never thought it would be this soon.  But it is something that I have to go through and learn, because at this point, my family and I will be caring for her, in this capacity.  At times, I mean mostly I feel very overwhelmed.  Like I can’t…  I know I can, and will.

Life has so many facets.  I don’t know anyone who is prepared for this, there are so many things that need to be done as well.  Things we do not want to discuss, but have to follow up on them.  Very important.  Life is so very precious, love hard and forgive quickly.

Just another night here at the hospital.