One thing that was certain about my mom… she loved to fish! Put her on any pond or by any lake, and she would have a smile on her face. I did love that. This photo was taken in San Angelo, we just decided to go back and do some fishing that day. I will definitely miss theses times, but here’s to memories. Much love mom.
A photo of my step dad and mom, we visted Marathon TX, and this was Santa Rita No 1. It is a oil derek. Those were some good times we had, taking long drives and rides. Something that I will miss dearly. She sure loved to go. I miss you mom, I have you in my heart always. Perhaps I too will find someone who dosen’t mind driving, and me riding to long, and adventurous places.
With a smile… mom loved to smile, Living in Austin made her smile lots. She accomplished more things here, than anywhere else. Well, almost anywhere else. It was a new turning point in her life. And I am blessed to have been a part if it. Much love mom.
Much love, indeed these two had been married for 30 years. But had known one another since childhood. You could definitely see the love with them.
Church was stellar today, life class equally refreshing. Just listing to praise and worship songs on pandora, makes me cry, these songs are the songs we both loved,and sang in church, and with one anither, they fill my heart. I know she woul be happy right now knowing I am in church, that we all are in church. Getting closer to God, His Word. Today I am starting Proverbs in the Bible, I will read a passage each day. God has done so much for my soul and spirit, in these times. It is I who must draw closer to him.
I totally admire my friend Olivia, who went to Honduras, mission work. God is totally blessing this woman, she is truly the church in this world. I have been thinking of volunteering in the church bookstore. To be continued…
I know there are some major areas in my life that need cleaning up, I pray to God everyday to guide my steps, to give me discernment, and give me wisdom to see the truth of things, to send the ones that are supposed to be in my life, and the ones that are not to remove the ones that do not belong.
Did God remove mom from my life, because of a journey I need to be on, without her, I do wonder, but there are roads we have to walk. We will never be alone, because He is with us. Gods reasons are not our reasons. A time,and season for all. It has been 4 Sundays since she passed. I cried today. It will get better, this I know in my soul.
I love you mom.
What I see…
Looking out the waiting room window, today is a cold,wet,gray kind of day. It is Sunday, and me and dad are at the hospital visiting mom. She is in a state, upset about things, no details, but very upset. I hate seeing her this way, I pray this does not last the whole day. I really do not like hospitals, but here I am, rveryday with pop in tow, coming to see my mom. I love this woman, and want her to get better, and stronger. Emotionally I do not know where I an at, I suppose all over the place, just trying to hold it together. I will get there, I will get there.
Another evening here at the hospital. Today was my day off from work, so spent it taking care of business,before heading up to the hospital. As I quietly sit and type this out; what comes to mind is how are we, meaning I coping with all this. I figured some day I would have to assist my parents, or care for them. I guess I never thought it would be this soon. But it is something that I have to go through and learn, because at this point, my family and I will be caring for her, in this capacity. At times, I mean mostly I feel very overwhelmed. Like I can’t… I know I can, and will.
Life has so many facets. I don’t know anyone who is prepared for this, there are so many things that need to be done as well. Things we do not want to discuss, but have to follow up on them. Very important. Life is so very precious, love hard and forgive quickly.
Just another night here at the hospital.
Another worth while day with mom. I get to spend more time on Sundays,because I have that day off. Anyway, life is chugging along, they have spaced out her medication, the pain is not like it was in the begining. Still not walking or able to stand; but in time and with much physical therapy this will be possible.
All this is what is called adversity, we all eventually go through something of it. How we deal and handle it is the other thing. I was watching Dr. Stanleys program on adversity, what he said is so very true… God does not give you more than you can handle. He knows what you can and can not, and at which times as well. I know that if these things had come up at another time in my life, it may have been too much, but God knew, I know I am so much stronger for it. To God I give all the Glory and Praise!
Well, getting my time in with mom. that is all that is going on in My Corner. Enjoy your day.
What I love about the early mornings in my life; are that it is filled with peace and semi-silence. Here I am sitting out at the park next to Central Market, waiting for the time when have to be on the grind. it is relatively quiet. There is bustling from time to time, with joggers on the trails, and the engine hum from the truck waiting to unload; otherwise it is a nice morning. I so love the early morning hours.
The weather is nice at the moment, but the gray of the clouds are moving in. weather is about to turn cold.
Glitches in my mom’s move to the rehab, her platelets were too low, so they gave her another round of blood, and is keeping her at the hospital. She will be there all this week, and weekend. They will see what’s what after. I terribly hate what is going on with her, to see her in such pain. Family, friends, and prayers is what keeps me sane. To God goes the glory.
Yesterday I had my first Chai Latte in a year. From Central market of course. I am about to walk over and get me one before work. I have definitely missed them.
So I shall enjoy my quiet time this morning, and I hope your day is filled with some quietness as well. Until the next time, enjoy.
Seems as though the new apartment move will not be taking place at this time. Mom and dad will be staying where they are for now, and I will keep the apartment I am in for another year.
This door may have been closed, but God always open up another. So I will not pout. It will all be good. God has something far better in store. Things happen for a reason. That is all.