Category: life’s lessons

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 3:

 

mom at museum

This photo was the first time mom had gone to The Blanton Museum.  It was a fun day after we got there, before it was a little nerve wracking, only because we took the bus, and we walked down to the museum, and I was figuring out which way to turn, but once I righted myself, we were on our way, and she loved it.  I never did get a chance to take her to other museums around Austin, but she really did love this one.  This is the stacked waters wall she is standing in front of.  It was a very fun day indeed.

Life goes on…

And so do I…  Day by day, as I wake from each one.  Daylight gives way to nighttime, and it continues on.  Today back to work, for both me and dad.  He took off, to deal with social security, and also a doctor’s appointment.  He is going to have to keep an eye on his high blood pressure, it was a bit high, and they found he is a little anemic. Bills are getting paid, slowly, and a bit late, but still being paid.

Yesterday, I donated money to a go fund me, for a friend on facebook, who is trying to pay for fees to get to see his little boy.  I felt really strong about donating to his fund, I myself had set up a go fund me, to help pay for bills for when mom died, and what I got was very helpful, and it just made me want to pay it forward to someone else that may be in need.

This is true, life does go on, and so do I.

2016… The Year that was!

This has been a year that I would like a do over with, but I can not.  There have been hard times, good times, happy times, and times well, times that I cry, spending a wonderful year with my mom, before she died.  Today does not seem like the last day of this year, and it definitely does not feel like a Saturday, but it is.  Here I sit at my mom’s computer, which is now my computer, typing this out.  I miss her so dearly, the tears come day after day.  But life goes on, bills keep on keeping, and I have to move forward.

I just want this year to be done, and I want the new year to start, what plans do I have for the new year, well first off, I am going back to church.  God has shown me that He is still on the throne.  He has shown up and shown out for me, prayers do change things, even through all the hurt and pain that my family are going through, God is still in control, and he has us.  The bills keep on piling up, but we are still able to pay them, still able to have enough, God is more than enough.

As I was going through mom’s note tablet, which is about to go to my sister, I found this…  It is called “A Letter from Heaven”

When tomorrow stats without me,

and I’m not hear to see,

If the sun should rise and find your

eyes, filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry,

the way you did today,

While thinking of the many things,

we didn’t get to say.

I know how much you love me,

as much as I love you.

And each time you think of me,

I know you’ll miss me too.

When tomorrow starts without me,

don’t think we’re far apart.

for every time you think of me

I’m right there in your heart.

I don’t know who wrote this, but it was so beautiful, I cried while I was reading it.  This sums up how I am feeling, for my mom.  I know that we will meet again one day, but for now, I have to live my life here on this earth, and to the best of my ability.

blondie

May you rest in peace my sweet mom, we love you, and we will see you again.  Your memory lives on in us, your family, in your daughters and sons, your grandkids, your friends.  2016 was a year that I want to forget, but it is also a year that brought us closer to one another, and I will always be grateful for that.  2017 is going to be an awesome year.  I love you.

 

On the move…

My mom that is, today is probably her last day staying at the hospital at St. David’s Round Rock, she will be moving into a Rehab facility for a week or so.  Senior Care home, where they will continue to work with getting her up on her feet, so that she may come home.  I am totally exhausted, and I know she is as well.  It is no fun, when the one you love is ill.  I try to hold back the tears in the presence of others, and even mom, but when I go home, I cry silently.  It is so very hard.  She is making some progress, I pray to God every day and night, and along the day.  I know prayer changes things.

I took the day off work today, so that I could get some things done around their apartment, you know, laundry, and cooking and cleaning it up.  Especially for my dad, so that when he comes in, he won’t have to worry about any thing, and we can go strait to the hospital to see mom.  Usually I get to see her when I get out of work on the days I leave around 5:30, otherwise, I get out around 8 and that’s just way to late to be heading there.  I don’t complain, it’s all good.  I have employment, and I am a bit closer to home, so at the moment it works out.

I really, hope that they can get her some home health care that is within her coverage, praying everyday, because she is definitely going to need it to get better once she is totally released and sent home.

That is it for now, until the next update.  Hope your day is going well.

Exercising my Rights…

To Vote that is.  This morning I took advantage of the early voting that is going on, and I went to one of the polling places, and voted.  I am so happy I did.  What will be, will be, early voting continues until Friday.  My mom will try to vote tomorrow, or this coming week.  Speaking of my mom, she is doing a bit better, I think they are done taking blood from her for now, she continues on medication, until she is approved for this clinical research trial.  Keep prayers.

I am also in the midst of searching for a job closer to home, will keep updated on that as well.  Life had been something else, this year, has been something else.  But I am still alive and living it the best that I can.

Hope you are exercising your rights as well.

Update…

My mom has mylodysplastic Syndrome, (MDS)  The myelodysplastic syndromes are hematological medical conditions that cause ineffective production of all blood cells. Patients with MDS can develop severe anemia and require blood transfusions. In some cases, the disease worsens and the patient develops cytopenias caused by progressive bone marrow failure. The outlook in MDS depends on the type and severity. Many people live normal lifespans with MDS.

Which means her bone marrow is pretty Jacked up.  She will see doctor after doctor for this, in fact she has to go to a doctor who will see if she qualifies for a Trial research for some medication.  Instead of having to see about experimental medical treatments in Houston.  Will keep all updated and posted.  For today, it looks like she will be doing treatments here in Austin.

I have decided that I am going to stay home with her while this is going on, and find a job closer to home, instead of being all the way out south, and taking forever to get back north and with her.  Thank God that my dad is working, as well, but for now, I am going to be there while he works to keep bills paid.  I will look for something closer.  Because I still need to get my bills paid as well.  But It will be alright, God has his hands on our family.  All the prayers of family and friends. Thanks for all those who prayed and are still praying.

Today has been a wild day, but I know my mom is so very strong, and she is going to beat this thing.

Coming Home…

Tonight, my mom has been released from the hospital.  Yay!  She has to do some follow ups, and they are somewhere down town, but we will take a taxi to get her to them. I am glad she is coming home, I have missed her so much, you know…  You don’t know what you got until something happens, I know I need to be a bit more patient with her, I am working on that.  I love my mom very much.  I want to have more good times than the not so good times with her, as much as I can.

she is pretty much medicated to the hilt, so hopefully she sleeps well tonight, without much pain.  Got all her meds filled, and believe me there are a lot of them.  My oh my!  Anyway, that is the latest on my mom.

So today I stayed home and cleaned her apartment, so that it will be much easier for her to maneuver around her apartment, being there were lots of things that I had to put away.  I am tired now.  I did happen to get in the rest of The Get Down on netflix.  It is a awesome show, season 1.  I do hope there will be a season two, just have to wait and see.  Well that is about it for tonight, so until the next time.  Keep it nice and easy.