Category: Personal

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week:11

 

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This was my mom as a kid, I can see the resemblance in all three of us, my sister and brother.  She was an only child by her mother.  Strong willed, and so very independent.  And so very missed.  My mom was a giver, she was nice and caring; but she was also a Scorpio, and if you got on her bad side, you better watch out!  There are a lot of personality traits I got from her, some not so good, but most very good.  I am so blessed to have had her for 43 of my years.  Mom I love you.

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 5:

 

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A day at the Capitol, This was the first trip that I took with her and my stepdad when they came to visit me In September of 2013.  She loved going down to the Capitol, her and I were alike, when it came to exploring new places.  I remember several times going to the Capitol with her, we finally even ate at the Capitol Grille a couple of times.  These are the very good memories that I will keep.

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 3:

 

mom at museum

This photo was the first time mom had gone to The Blanton Museum.  It was a fun day after we got there, before it was a little nerve wracking, only because we took the bus, and we walked down to the museum, and I was figuring out which way to turn, but once I righted myself, we were on our way, and she loved it.  I never did get a chance to take her to other museums around Austin, but she really did love this one.  This is the stacked waters wall she is standing in front of.  It was a very fun day indeed.

2016… The Year that was!

This has been a year that I would like a do over with, but I can not.  There have been hard times, good times, happy times, and times well, times that I cry, spending a wonderful year with my mom, before she died.  Today does not seem like the last day of this year, and it definitely does not feel like a Saturday, but it is.  Here I sit at my mom’s computer, which is now my computer, typing this out.  I miss her so dearly, the tears come day after day.  But life goes on, bills keep on keeping, and I have to move forward.

I just want this year to be done, and I want the new year to start, what plans do I have for the new year, well first off, I am going back to church.  God has shown me that He is still on the throne.  He has shown up and shown out for me, prayers do change things, even through all the hurt and pain that my family are going through, God is still in control, and he has us.  The bills keep on piling up, but we are still able to pay them, still able to have enough, God is more than enough.

As I was going through mom’s note tablet, which is about to go to my sister, I found this…  It is called “A Letter from Heaven”

When tomorrow stats without me,

and I’m not hear to see,

If the sun should rise and find your

eyes, filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry,

the way you did today,

While thinking of the many things,

we didn’t get to say.

I know how much you love me,

as much as I love you.

And each time you think of me,

I know you’ll miss me too.

When tomorrow starts without me,

don’t think we’re far apart.

for every time you think of me

I’m right there in your heart.

I don’t know who wrote this, but it was so beautiful, I cried while I was reading it.  This sums up how I am feeling, for my mom.  I know that we will meet again one day, but for now, I have to live my life here on this earth, and to the best of my ability.

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May you rest in peace my sweet mom, we love you, and we will see you again.  Your memory lives on in us, your family, in your daughters and sons, your grandkids, your friends.  2016 was a year that I want to forget, but it is also a year that brought us closer to one another, and I will always be grateful for that.  2017 is going to be an awesome year.  I love you.

 

On the move…

My mom that is, today is probably her last day staying at the hospital at St. David’s Round Rock, she will be moving into a Rehab facility for a week or so.  Senior Care home, where they will continue to work with getting her up on her feet, so that she may come home.  I am totally exhausted, and I know she is as well.  It is no fun, when the one you love is ill.  I try to hold back the tears in the presence of others, and even mom, but when I go home, I cry silently.  It is so very hard.  She is making some progress, I pray to God every day and night, and along the day.  I know prayer changes things.

I took the day off work today, so that I could get some things done around their apartment, you know, laundry, and cooking and cleaning it up.  Especially for my dad, so that when he comes in, he won’t have to worry about any thing, and we can go strait to the hospital to see mom.  Usually I get to see her when I get out of work on the days I leave around 5:30, otherwise, I get out around 8 and that’s just way to late to be heading there.  I don’t complain, it’s all good.  I have employment, and I am a bit closer to home, so at the moment it works out.

I really, hope that they can get her some home health care that is within her coverage, praying everyday, because she is definitely going to need it to get better once she is totally released and sent home.

That is it for now, until the next update.  Hope your day is going well.

GoT… and other shows.

Wholly dragon balls my friends, well friends who watch The Game of Thrones.  Last nights episode was Amazing!  Got to see Bran, and got to see at the end of course, what happened to Jon Snow!!!  If that wasn’t crazy, I don’t know what is, but then again it is only episode 2.  Whoa, whoa, whoa, this season is going to kick ass so hard, I am loving this show.  So glad I am able to watch it.  I will eventually have all the boxed sets.  Last night was crazy good, can’t wait to catch next Sundays episode.  Seriously people, I recommend this 200 percent.

I also recommend watching The blacklist.  With liz now dead, of course I don’t believe she is really gone, I think it is just to throw the bad guys off her sent, that have been hunting her down, they had to play like she died, but you know how writable these stories can be, I do believe that she is off for now, because she did have a baby in real life, they had to write all that into the story line, but it’s all hear say from me, I am not all that sure, but I am going with this story.  It has gotten really awesome, and since I  read that it has been picked up for season 4, I am all giddy with glee.  So watch, it is a really good show.

I am watching season 3 of The agents of Marvel, really good, really good, they also have been picked up for another season.  So, pretty much this year has been well off for things to watch, then of course there is Netflix, and the originals and things they are showing, loving every minuet of it, when I can get around to watching.  That is pretty much about it for now, so until the next time show watchers, enjoy this season, of prime time.

IT’s not rocket science, it’s only the front counter…

Well, onward sweet flowering life.  About 3 weeks ago, I ended my stint with that place I was, one of which I shant mention, and now I am working for a temp agency, and my first gig started today, I had a day of training on Saturday, and today was my full day of work, sure, it is only for a week, then I move on to other pastures.  It is pretty interesting indeed, this stint is for a florist in the city, I am at the front counter, is it pretty busy, for this will be mother’s day, and it will be crazy.  I never knew so much went in to flowers, oh the business behind the petals and stems.  I was a bit nervous, but the crew I work with is so very gracious, and I feel very comfortable in this spot.  I am really digging this.  I will get new assignments for now, this is working for me, of course, always looking for longer term things, as the process goes on.  Here’s to the sweet smell from the flowers of life.