Category: Texas

Moved back in…

To my apartment, me and the little girl.  She sniffed, slinked, and scurried around the place.  Meowing loudly, finally getting familiar with things.  She loves the new cat tree, got a real bargin at pet smart.  What I thought was 99 bucks, was on sale for 69 dollars.  Oh believe me, I spent money last night, between the cat and some food for myself, I almost wept, but it was necessary.

I now really look forward to coming home after a long days or nights work to see my kittie girl.  Now that she is mine and my responsibility.  Anyways, there are great responsibilities as a adult I have to do Monday, one of which, need to update my resume.  I am trying to stick with this job, for at least a year, not sure that will happen, as so much nonsense is going on there.  So that is that.

Last weekend, went to the free day at Zilker, went to the botanical garden.  Invited nephwe and sister who have never been, it was great fun.  Photos below.







Welp, until the next adventure, keep it fun.

Mmm nope!!!

So today got the notion to try some bbq, I have tried Bill Millers, and it was crap.  So today went for the one down the street from the apartments.  Branch Bbq, I got two plates, one for me, one for my dad.  

This was the 5 meat sampler.  Rib,sausage, brisket,pork loin,chicken, two sides, beans potato salad,coleslaw. Cherry pie and pecan pie.  Spent 50 bucks to see if it was good.  The out come was 😝👎👎.  We sampled it all, and the only decent thing was the chopped beef.  The other things were flavorless.  It was bland and dry.  Nothing spectacular about the pies, and well fifty bucks tossed in the trash.  I definatly will not go back there.  Even the sauce could not save this bland bbq.  Moving on.  Will try others along the way.  To be continued…

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 9:

A photo of my step dad and mom, we visted Marathon TX, and this was Santa Rita No 1.  It is a oil derek.  Those were some good times we had, taking long drives and rides.  Something that I will miss dearly.  She sure loved to go.  I miss you mom, I have you in my heart always.  Perhaps I too will find someone who dosen’t mind driving, and me riding to long, and adventurous places.

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 5:

 

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A day at the Capitol, This was the first trip that I took with her and my stepdad when they came to visit me In September of 2013.  She loved going down to the Capitol, her and I were alike, when it came to exploring new places.  I remember several times going to the Capitol with her, we finally even ate at the Capitol Grille a couple of times.  These are the very good memories that I will keep.

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 3:

 

mom at museum

This photo was the first time mom had gone to The Blanton Museum.  It was a fun day after we got there, before it was a little nerve wracking, only because we took the bus, and we walked down to the museum, and I was figuring out which way to turn, but once I righted myself, we were on our way, and she loved it.  I never did get a chance to take her to other museums around Austin, but she really did love this one.  This is the stacked waters wall she is standing in front of.  It was a very fun day indeed.

Life goes on…

And so do I…  Day by day, as I wake from each one.  Daylight gives way to nighttime, and it continues on.  Today back to work, for both me and dad.  He took off, to deal with social security, and also a doctor’s appointment.  He is going to have to keep an eye on his high blood pressure, it was a bit high, and they found he is a little anemic. Bills are getting paid, slowly, and a bit late, but still being paid.

Yesterday, I donated money to a go fund me, for a friend on facebook, who is trying to pay for fees to get to see his little boy.  I felt really strong about donating to his fund, I myself had set up a go fund me, to help pay for bills for when mom died, and what I got was very helpful, and it just made me want to pay it forward to someone else that may be in need.

This is true, life does go on, and so do I.

Fifty-two weeks of my healing.

I have decided to post a photo of my mom every week, for 52 weeks, I think it will be a healing process for me of sorts.  I have chosen today to do this, I shall see how it all goes, starting something new is always a challenge.  I hope I can complete this.  Here goes.

 

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I loved this photo, she would love going to lake marble falls, just to feed the ducks, one in particular that we called diaper booty, lol, which was a big goose.  I will truly miss those times.

My Corner…

Another evening here at the hospital.  Today was my day off from work, so spent it taking care of business,before heading up to the hospital.  As I quietly sit and type this out; what comes to mind is how are we, meaning I coping with all this.  I figured some day I would have to assist my parents, or care for them.  I guess I never thought it would be this soon.  But it is something that I have to go through and learn, because at this point, my family and I will be caring for her, in this capacity.  At times, I mean mostly I feel very overwhelmed.  Like I can’t…  I know I can, and will.

Life has so many facets.  I don’t know anyone who is prepared for this, there are so many things that need to be done as well.  Things we do not want to discuss, but have to follow up on them.  Very important.  Life is so very precious, love hard and forgive quickly.

Just another night here at the hospital.  

My Corner…

Another worth while day with mom.  I get to spend more time on Sundays,because I have that day off.  Anyway, life is chugging along, they have spaced out her medication, the pain is not like it was in the begining.  Still not walking or able to stand; but in time and with much physical therapy this will be possible.  

All this is what is called adversity, we all eventually go through something of it.  How we deal and handle it is the other thing.  I was watching Dr. Stanleys program on adversity, what he said is so very true…  God does not give you more than you can handle.  He knows what you can and can not, and at which times as well.  I know that if these things had come up at another time in my life, it may have been too much, but God knew, I know I am so much stronger for it.  To God I give all the Glory and Praise!

Well, getting my time in with mom.  that is all that is going on in My Corner.  Enjoy your day.

My Corner…

Today is Thanksgiving 2016, this is the first holiday spent at the hospital.  I feel so lost, sitting here in the waiting room, because sitting there in moms room is a lot to take.  Trying to keep strong and not cry, but who am I fooling; certainly not these tears.  Not myself or even mom.  Here I am though,trying one min at a time.  Looking out over the top of the buildings, nothing but pale blue skies.  A beautiful Saturday, that should be spent enjoying great things with mom, instead here at this place,yeah what memories this will make.

I am not the only one, there are millions of families going through the same things or worse, but when it happens to your family it feels like your the only one.  I know that This family has the love of God, of family and friends, and even people who have just met you.  I write to alleviate the pain of this, it is my outlet, at least with this I can cry and not have to explain why.  It is difficult to talk and keep from tearing up.  Even though I know I have friends that will be there just to listen, no explinations of any kind needed.  I find a kind of solice in writing,something I need to do more of, get back to.  I am scared, I need to get back into the Word, that is what is going to keep me balanced in this time.   

This has been a year of ups and downs, I pray the 2017 year holds nothing but blessings and greatness.  Just writing this, has calmed my soul.  looking out over these buildings, peaceful and calm.  seeing the colors of the trees changing as with this weather.  Hold the the ones you love close and tell them you love them.  We never know how things will change.  Be thankful for all you have and whom you have.  So, now the tears have dried up;and I can see clearly.  Time to get my strength and conquer this fear, to move forward and keep on keeping on, because mom needs to know and feel that we as a family has her, and is onboard with her well being.  That means I need to step up.  To grow beyond what I am, I know I can. 

This has been My Corner…  Until the next time.  Happy Thanksgiving .