Category: wisdom

Early Morning Silence…

What I love about the early mornings in my life; are that it is filled with peace and semi-silence.  Here I am sitting out at the park next to Central Market, waiting for the time when have to be on the grind.  it is relatively quiet.  There is bustling from time to time, with joggers on the trails, and the engine hum from the truck waiting to unload; otherwise  it is a nice morning.  I so love the early morning hours.

The weather is nice at the moment, but the gray of the clouds are moving in.  weather is about to turn cold.  

Glitches in my mom’s move to the rehab, her platelets were too low, so they gave her another round of blood, and is keeping her at the hospital.  She will be there all this week, and weekend.  They will see what’s what after.  I terribly hate what is going on with her, to see her in such pain.  Family, friends, and prayers is what keeps me sane.  To God goes the glory.  

Yesterday I had my first Chai Latte in a year.  From Central market of course.  I am about to walk over and get me one before work.  I have definitely missed them.  

So I shall enjoy my quiet time this morning, and I hope your day is filled with some quietness as well.  Until the next time, enjoy.

Beyond 365

Day 355:

Today I am…  Not the same.  As the years have passed, I am not the same person I was before.  Things happen, life teaches you hard, valuable lessons.  You grow.  I feel the change within me, some good, some not so great, but changing every day.  Yes, it is hard to say where all thus will eventually take or lead me, but every day I live, it moves me forward; if I let it.  So here is to change.  May God keep directing these steps.

Today I am…  Not the same.

Beyond 365

Day 354:

Today I am…  Putting it Together!  The pieces that is.  The holidays the past couple of years have been hard,since the breakup.  But I am finally getting back to a semi happy place with it,each and every day, I am seeing the difference.  I see, and feel God’s good in all of this.  The tears are less and further between, the anxiety is leaving,and the cloud is lifting.  The thoughts are less, not over, but less.  And the holidays are getting me sparked once more.  Yes, time and my Faith in the Lord, fuels my soul to newness,and an awakening inside of me.  Tis the season Y’all!

Today I am…  Putting it Together!

Beyond 365

Day 336:

Today I am…  Hurt.  Truthfully, not just today, but for many years.  Hurt by words spoken.  Sometimes we forget, or fail to see that words are so powerful, and if spoken wrong, or in a certain manner, take years to be undone.  Myself, I know I have said some things to people, that I wish I could have taken back, but you can not.  Been on both ends.  It truly hurts.  Be mindful of the words you speak.

Today I am…  Hurt.

Beyond 365

Day 319:

Today I am…  Just Me!  That is right my friends and readers.  Mom is on the road, heading to San Angelo.  I am enjoying this most beautiful day.  Watching movies, and deep conditioning my hair for the week. 

Life is starting to look up.  I have started back tithing to church.  And things are happening in my life.  I can see it happening.  So I keep on keeping on.  Life is starting to look up.

Today I am…  Just Me!

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Day 309:

Today I am…  Sure!  I am sure that I am in the right place for now, I am sure Austin is where I belong right now.  I have not felt this way in a long time.  Really since I left Palm Springs, California over 19 years ago.  Yes! I am sure this is home for me at the moment.

Life is good. Work is decent.  Hey, what more could I ask for…  Well if you ask, possibly a nice man, who knows what and who he wants,  a sexy ,smart,….  well I am sure you know what I mean.  Anyway, two more work days for me.  Yes,oh yes.

Today I am…  Sure!

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Day 274:

Today I am…  In A Battle!  With all that is inside of me, the inner demons that try to control my emotional state of being, this is a hard battle, one that I will be victorious over, one that I will fight until I can overcome.  I know that sometimes, probably more than not, that I do not make a whole lot of sense with things, but my battle will be won, I will not allow the devil to keep me prisoner of my emotional state.  Everyday I pray for blessings, for Grace and to be renewed.  To forgive and be forgiven of my sins, I know God hears and does so.  God is so good in my life.  I will be a victor, and not a victim.

Today I am…  In A Battle.

Beyond 365

Day 239:

Today I am…  Waiting On You.  The Lord that is, I am waiting on the Lord, He as done such amazing things in my life as is, and I know there is still more to come, but I have to wait on Him, and His timing, not mine, I want to jump the gun, to rush things, I want them now, and that is not the way.

“But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.”(Isaiah 40:31, NKJV)

In everything that I do, and ask for, I need to wait.  It is so hard, but to gain the things that God says I have, patience and His timing is always right.

Today I am…  Waiting On You.

 

 

Beyond 365

Day 237:

Today I am…  Making It Clear!  No, No, No, and NO, I do not want children.  Truthfully, I have never wanted children, there was a point in my relationship with Joshua, that I, we talked about having a child, once we were married, we talked, and talked, and I said sure, I wanted a child with him, but truly, I did not.  I mean I was just fooling myself into thinking I wanted one, I finally fessed up.  Of course, we ended parting ways, and truly, I am thankful to God, to not have a child.  I have said before, and I will say it once, twice, and however many times I need to.  Children, they are not for me.

One of the aspects of my life, is that I love that I do not have the responsibility of raising a child, I can come and go as I please, that is if I want to, I do not have to deal with anyone else’s emotion other than mine and when I do get a mate, his.  But children no.  Make no mistake, I do want to have my own little family, but that is with pets, me, my husband and some pets if we choose to have them.  I know that one mistake I made was pretending that I wanted a child.  This was a mistake I will never make again, the truth is the truth, and the truth is I am childless by choice, and wish to remain that way.   When ever I do get into another relationship, this is going to be one of the very first things this person will know.  None of that you want children bs, this woman is coming full force with No, no, no, and no!  Welp, think that is about all of my rant for today, until the next time my reader’s and friends.  Enjoy your Monday, or what is left of it.

Today I am…  Making It Clear!