Category: writing

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 3:


mom at museum

This photo was the first time mom had gone to The Blanton Museum.  It was a fun day after we got there, before it was a little nerve wracking, only because we took the bus, and we walked down to the museum, and I was figuring out which way to turn, but once I righted myself, we were on our way, and she loved it.  I never did get a chance to take her to other museums around Austin, but she really did love this one.  This is the stacked waters wall she is standing in front of.  It was a very fun day indeed.

My Corner…

Today is Thanksgiving 2016, this is the first holiday spent at the hospital.  I feel so lost, sitting here in the waiting room, because sitting there in moms room is a lot to take.  Trying to keep strong and not cry, but who am I fooling; certainly not these tears.  Not myself or even mom.  Here I am though,trying one min at a time.  Looking out over the top of the buildings, nothing but pale blue skies.  A beautiful Saturday, that should be spent enjoying great things with mom, instead here at this place,yeah what memories this will make.

I am not the only one, there are millions of families going through the same things or worse, but when it happens to your family it feels like your the only one.  I know that This family has the love of God, of family and friends, and even people who have just met you.  I write to alleviate the pain of this, it is my outlet, at least with this I can cry and not have to explain why.  It is difficult to talk and keep from tearing up.  Even though I know I have friends that will be there just to listen, no explinations of any kind needed.  I find a kind of solice in writing,something I need to do more of, get back to.  I am scared, I need to get back into the Word, that is what is going to keep me balanced in this time.   

This has been a year of ups and downs, I pray the 2017 year holds nothing but blessings and greatness.  Just writing this, has calmed my soul.  looking out over these buildings, peaceful and calm.  seeing the colors of the trees changing as with this weather.  Hold the the ones you love close and tell them you love them.  We never know how things will change.  Be thankful for all you have and whom you have.  So, now the tears have dried up;and I can see clearly.  Time to get my strength and conquer this fear, to move forward and keep on keeping on, because mom needs to know and feel that we as a family has her, and is onboard with her well being.  That means I need to step up.  To grow beyond what I am, I know I can. 

This has been My Corner…  Until the next time.  Happy Thanksgiving . 

Beyond 365

Day 364:

Today I am…  Growing!  Reaching,stretching, and learning.  Yes, I am growing.  What a difference between the years.  I have seen many things with these eyes, and have heard many things with these ears.  I have explored places, eaten new things, and have made friends.  Time will tell if they are long lasting.  I have learned more about myself this way, than I ever could the way things were before. 

I believe I am a little more wiser,and a bit more stronger from it all.  I can put forth more effort, and will.  I look around, and I see my personal growth.  I see God in my life more, I see His Favor and Grace.  The love of family, and if friends online and off.  I see so much growth.  It is a beautiful season for growth.

Today I am seeing my mother and sister.  Ladies day.  We shall shop, drink wine, and decorate my tree.  Oh, and eat as well.  Today will be an awesome day my readers and friends.  So enjoy yourselves.

Today I am…  Growing!

Beyond 365

Day 363:

Today I am…  Down to Two.  More days that is.  This has been quite the experiment in writing for me, even with only two days left; I have learned a lot more about myself, as I have gone along.  So much more of myself to share as well.  Gives me good smiles.

Strange happenings at work.  The hiring freeze is over, tons more people have been hired, some fired, in all; they have a new pilot program they are working on.  Not really sure what it all entails.  Stay tuned.

My sense of smell, I think is trying to work itself out.  So will give it time.  Today is not so bad.  Life!  The things that happen to your body, as you get older.  Anyhow…  hope you have a grand Tuesday.

Today I am…   Down to Two.

Beyond 365

Day 362:

Today I am…  Feeling Off.  I think that my high fever and flu has left me with some side effects, one of them is my sense of smell.  Seems everything smells quite fruity, or overly sweet, I have no clue, it is nauseating at most, also, I think I am still under the weather, not completely healed of this, but on my way.  Today I am back at work, I would much rather be back at home under the covers.  But Wednesday will be here before I know it and I will be off work.  At the end of the week I think I might go to the clinic and get checked out.  This has never happen to me before.  Plus, now is the time for Cedar Fever, and allergies running amuck.  Maybe ask about allergy shots.  I am drinking only water today, so hopefully this will help me out.

Can you believe that I am almost done with my 365, yeah, neither can I lol.  It has definitely been something else.  Indeed, indeed.  Better get to work now, enjoy your Monday.

Today I am…  Feeling Off.