Moms death certificate came today, we will be recieving her ashes tomorrow, or Saturday. It is so hard to comprehend that my mom, whi was so full of life, is gone. It is not some fuzzy dream that I am waking up from;it is the harsh reality of this life I live, that we all live. I know we will all be touched by this in time, does not make it any less easy to deal with. If only…
This has been a year that I would like a do over with, but I can not. There have been hard times, good times, happy times, and times well, times that I cry, spending a wonderful year with my mom, before she died. Today does not seem like the last day of this year, and it definitely does not feel like a Saturday, but it is. Here I sit at my mom’s computer, which is now my computer, typing this out. I miss her so dearly, the tears come day after day. But life goes on, bills keep on keeping, and I have to move forward.
I just want this year to be done, and I want the new year to start, what plans do I have for the new year, well first off, I am going back to church. God has shown me that He is still on the throne. He has shown up and shown out for me, prayers do change things, even through all the hurt and pain that my family are going through, God is still in control, and he has us. The bills keep on piling up, but we are still able to pay them, still able to have enough, God is more than enough.
As I was going through mom’s note tablet, which is about to go to my sister, I found this… It is called “A Letter from Heaven”
When tomorrow stats without me,
and I’m not hear to see,
If the sun should rise and find your
eyes, filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry,
the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you.
And each time you think of me,
I know you’ll miss me too.
When tomorrow starts without me,
don’t think we’re far apart.
for every time you think of me
I’m right there in your heart.
I don’t know who wrote this, but it was so beautiful, I cried while I was reading it. This sums up how I am feeling, for my mom. I know that we will meet again one day, but for now, I have to live my life here on this earth, and to the best of my ability.
May you rest in peace my sweet mom, we love you, and we will see you again. Your memory lives on in us, your family, in your daughters and sons, your grandkids, your friends. 2016 was a year that I want to forget, but it is also a year that brought us closer to one another, and I will always be grateful for that. 2017 is going to be an awesome year. I love you.
In Loving Memory… May you Rest In Peace, my beautiful Mom.
11-14-1950 – 12-18-2016
Today as I was flipping through my news feed, there it was. The news that Prince had died, yes, it was a total shock, as I am sure it was and still is for the rest of the world. Oh the world has lost another great, one that was a musical genius, and inspired many, with his creativity. Rest In Peace Prince. Hearing the purple rain fall.
Oh the itchy, watery, scratchy eyes, yes! Ceder fever is in full swing, here in Austin! Not only is it freezing cold today, but my eyes are burning with allergies. No, I am not happy, I am taking some claritin-d tabs, I do think I might need something stronger. I can’t stay in all day, got to get out, hit the road, and get moving about, so I am going to have to fight this with all I have. Ugh!
On a sad note today, David Bowie had died. A very weird and musical genius, who I will miss dearly, loved his music, and his crazy styles, he was always reinventing himself and his music, just a sad day. May he rest in peace, and condolences to his family.
So friends, family, and loyal readers, I say… Will you have 1.3 billion reasons to buy a power ball ticket? I know I do, yes, I will purchase me a ticket, hey it only takes 6 numbers to win it, and you can’t win it, if your not in it. Indeed, indeed. Well time to get this day started, until the next time. Enjoy your day.
Today I am… Grieving. The loss of someone, I did not know him well, we worked at the same place. In fact, he was the one who informed me of this job. It was by God grace, and design. His niece is the one who adopted me into their family last Thanks giving holiday. It is a shock, he passed away yesterday. I had just seen him Saturday morning.
Like a flicker of light,we can be here one min, and the next gone.
Today I am… Grieving.
I do not know how many deaths have occurred during this fest since it started in 1987, but today there were 2 deaths, and numerous injuries, when a drunk driver fleeing from cops, broke through a barrier and plowed into a crowd of music goer’s. Along the way hitting a guy on a bike who died and a woman on a moped who also died. This is the story that I woke up to this morning on my way to work, the bus driver was telling us what happened, as much as he knows. Pretty sad, that there are people blaming the cops for this, by chasing the guy. I have never had any problems with the police here in Austin, so I say, let’s not blame them for doing their job, lets put the blame where is should be and that is with the person who got behind the wheel of his vehicle knowing he was drunk and decided that instead of pulling over, he would run, and now he has killed two people and injured many more.
Caution to all out during this south by weekend, please be safe, and do not drink, or drive, it isn’t worth ending up dead or in prison. My condolence goes out to the families of the two who died, and prayers to the ones who are in the hospital.