Tag: family

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 47:


My mom, my nephew, my sister and I.  Family affair.  There was so much going on in those days.  I can say I do not miss those times, but I do miss mom.  Much love mom.

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Moved back in…

To my apartment, me and the little girl.  She sniffed, slinked, and scurried around the place.  Meowing loudly, finally getting familiar with things.  She loves the new cat tree, got a real bargin at pet smart.  What I thought was 99 bucks, was on sale for 69 dollars.  Oh believe me, I spent money last night, between the cat and some food for myself, I almost wept, but it was necessary.

I now really look forward to coming home after a long days or nights work to see my kittie girl.  Now that she is mine and my responsibility.  Anyways, there are great responsibilities as a adult I have to do Monday, one of which, need to update my resume.  I am trying to stick with this job, for at least a year, not sure that will happen, as so much nonsense is going on there.  So that is that.

Last weekend, went to the free day at Zilker, went to the botanical garden.  Invited nephwe and sister who have never been, it was great fun.  Photos below.







Welp, until the next adventure, keep it fun.

My Corner…

Today is Thanksgiving 2016, this is the first holiday spent at the hospital.  I feel so lost, sitting here in the waiting room, because sitting there in moms room is a lot to take.  Trying to keep strong and not cry, but who am I fooling; certainly not these tears.  Not myself or even mom.  Here I am though,trying one min at a time.  Looking out over the top of the buildings, nothing but pale blue skies.  A beautiful Saturday, that should be spent enjoying great things with mom, instead here at this place,yeah what memories this will make.

I am not the only one, there are millions of families going through the same things or worse, but when it happens to your family it feels like your the only one.  I know that This family has the love of God, of family and friends, and even people who have just met you.  I write to alleviate the pain of this, it is my outlet, at least with this I can cry and not have to explain why.  It is difficult to talk and keep from tearing up.  Even though I know I have friends that will be there just to listen, no explinations of any kind needed.  I find a kind of solice in writing,something I need to do more of, get back to.  I am scared, I need to get back into the Word, that is what is going to keep me balanced in this time.   

This has been a year of ups and downs, I pray the 2017 year holds nothing but blessings and greatness.  Just writing this, has calmed my soul.  looking out over these buildings, peaceful and calm.  seeing the colors of the trees changing as with this weather.  Hold the the ones you love close and tell them you love them.  We never know how things will change.  Be thankful for all you have and whom you have.  So, now the tears have dried up;and I can see clearly.  Time to get my strength and conquer this fear, to move forward and keep on keeping on, because mom needs to know and feel that we as a family has her, and is onboard with her well being.  That means I need to step up.  To grow beyond what I am, I know I can. 

This has been My Corner…  Until the next time.  Happy Thanksgiving . 

On the move…

My mom that is, today is probably her last day staying at the hospital at St. David’s Round Rock, she will be moving into a Rehab facility for a week or so.  Senior Care home, where they will continue to work with getting her up on her feet, so that she may come home.  I am totally exhausted, and I know she is as well.  It is no fun, when the one you love is ill.  I try to hold back the tears in the presence of others, and even mom, but when I go home, I cry silently.  It is so very hard.  She is making some progress, I pray to God every day and night, and along the day.  I know prayer changes things.

I took the day off work today, so that I could get some things done around their apartment, you know, laundry, and cooking and cleaning it up.  Especially for my dad, so that when he comes in, he won’t have to worry about any thing, and we can go strait to the hospital to see mom.  Usually I get to see her when I get out of work on the days I leave around 5:30, otherwise, I get out around 8 and that’s just way to late to be heading there.  I don’t complain, it’s all good.  I have employment, and I am a bit closer to home, so at the moment it works out.

I really, hope that they can get her some home health care that is within her coverage, praying everyday, because she is definitely going to need it to get better once she is totally released and sent home.

That is it for now, until the next update.  Hope your day is going well.

Spending my time…

With the family, gathered around my mom’s hospital bed.  Looking on as the doctors come in and out, with news for the day.  It looks promising, they looked at her feet, and listened to how much blood flow she was getting to it.  It is a lot better today, than yesterday afternoon, it got better thought the night, and today, is a bit more better.  Still no word on if they are going to keep her where she is in Round Rock, or transfer to South, should know something tomorrow.  I am heart happy about the news, just keep on praying that the blood cots dissolve and her platelets are up high enough where they can do the necessary procedures to get the clots out.  In the coming days, something will be known.  For now, I am ecstatic with the progress going on.  Blessings goes to the man upstairs lol. Updates will be had when more happens.