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Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 42:

A photo from my phone, that I had taken a couple years back.  My dad and half sister, we share the same dad, but different mothers, came down from Cali for my birthday.  Mom on the right, it was a good day,   I miss you mom, its getting to be that time of the year.

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Springing Forward…

Daylights savings time begins again, this time we spring forward, so we lose an hour.  I like that it gets dark later now, that is good for me; since I ride the bus, and I hate walking to the bus stop at 6 and it is dark, so this gives me a little more light out.  The days are just running into one another, so quickly that I am not able to catch up with things.  Next week, it will be 3 months since the passing of my mom, I still cry, last night I had a good cry with my sister.  I will be so happy once I can stop crying, and just have that sense of peace and calmness inside of me, no tears, just being able to talk about her, without having to tear up every time.  In time, in time it will get there, just have to be patient.

Lots is going on with work, lots of things we are doing, we got in live plants and flowers, and they are selling like crazy, I have been thinking that soon, I will get some.  I have been working hard this week.

I have been working on getting my apartment ready to receive my cat princess.  I will be getting her a new litter box, and also a new cat tree, so that she will be right at home.  Also getting a new sectional and area rug.  Once I get that done and situated, I will post photos.

South by Southwest is in town now, not plan on going to any of it, I just do not really have time or patience for it.  Anyhoo, life goes on.  I at least have Monday off, so will make the best of it.  Until the next time friends, enjoy!

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 9:

A photo of my step dad and mom, we visted Marathon TX, and this was Santa Rita No 1.  It is a oil derek.  Those were some good times we had, taking long drives and rides.  Something that I will miss dearly.  She sure loved to go.  I miss you mom, I have you in my heart always.  Perhaps I too will find someone who dosen’t mind driving, and me riding to long, and adventurous places.

Getting back in it somewhat

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything on the regular.  I am very slowly getting myself back.  I know it will take a while.  Always a work -in-progress.  So this morning, the bus did not come, there I and another woman staning there.  She calls cap metro customer service, they say it is a mechanical issue, but do not offer when ir if they will send a back-up bus.  See this lousy route as it may be only has one bus making the rounds wvery our on the weekends, and two busses back and forth on the weekdays.  And it goes in a short loop, not like it was goong all the way to China and back, but just to one park and ride, then to the Howard Station. Anyhoo, this lady calls a ride share and tells me I can ride with her to the park and ride.  Now that is mighty generous.  That is my shining star of the morning.  

So getting back to myself;I’ve been cleaning my apartment, and making some changes.  So that it will accommodate my new kiddo.  Princess.

Who is now my responsibility since my mom passed away.  I am getting her a new cat tree, and hopes she takes the move and new accommodations well.  To be continued on that!

I also acquired new artwork 

This painting comes from a co-worker who is very artistic.  I hope she sells more of her work.  It will hang over my fireplace once I get thing situated.  

Winter is subsiding, soon Spring will be upon us.  Today is turing out like a spring day, so lovely in the sun.  I am enjoying it while it is here.  

Here’s to getting back…  All aboard!

Fifty-Two Weeks of My Healing…

Week 5:

 

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A day at the Capitol, This was the first trip that I took with her and my stepdad when they came to visit me In September of 2013.  She loved going down to the Capitol, her and I were alike, when it came to exploring new places.  I remember several times going to the Capitol with her, we finally even ate at the Capitol Grille a couple of times.  These are the very good memories that I will keep.

2016… The Year that was!

This has been a year that I would like a do over with, but I can not.  There have been hard times, good times, happy times, and times well, times that I cry, spending a wonderful year with my mom, before she died.  Today does not seem like the last day of this year, and it definitely does not feel like a Saturday, but it is.  Here I sit at my mom’s computer, which is now my computer, typing this out.  I miss her so dearly, the tears come day after day.  But life goes on, bills keep on keeping, and I have to move forward.

I just want this year to be done, and I want the new year to start, what plans do I have for the new year, well first off, I am going back to church.  God has shown me that He is still on the throne.  He has shown up and shown out for me, prayers do change things, even through all the hurt and pain that my family are going through, God is still in control, and he has us.  The bills keep on piling up, but we are still able to pay them, still able to have enough, God is more than enough.

As I was going through mom’s note tablet, which is about to go to my sister, I found this…  It is called “A Letter from Heaven”

When tomorrow stats without me,

and I’m not hear to see,

If the sun should rise and find your

eyes, filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry,

the way you did today,

While thinking of the many things,

we didn’t get to say.

I know how much you love me,

as much as I love you.

And each time you think of me,

I know you’ll miss me too.

When tomorrow starts without me,

don’t think we’re far apart.

for every time you think of me

I’m right there in your heart.

I don’t know who wrote this, but it was so beautiful, I cried while I was reading it.  This sums up how I am feeling, for my mom.  I know that we will meet again one day, but for now, I have to live my life here on this earth, and to the best of my ability.

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May you rest in peace my sweet mom, we love you, and we will see you again.  Your memory lives on in us, your family, in your daughters and sons, your grandkids, your friends.  2016 was a year that I want to forget, but it is also a year that brought us closer to one another, and I will always be grateful for that.  2017 is going to be an awesome year.  I love you.